11-16-11 “He did deliver me from bondage” p. 127, Day 2

11-16-11    “He did deliver me from bondage” p. 127, Day 2

Daily Inventory…  Hum, new idea.    An enemy that weakens my strength?

I think an enemy that weakens my influence is trying to control others- it is repulsive not influential.  I still feel the ‘monster’ inside me who wants to strike out and tell others what to do.  It has been a constant game of ‘give and take’ learning “Which part is mine, and Lord which part is yours?  I get so confused sometimes.  Could you please tell me which part is mine, and which part is yours?”  That’s a song I remember from my youth.  It has been the adventure of my life to figure it out.  (by the way I have recently decided to use the word of adventure where I used to use the word challenge;  Before that I used the word problem instead of challenge.  I’m growing!  Because I know my mind will create the reality of what ever I call it and believe it to be.) 

I found this liberating quote today on facebook:

Heather Madder
" I hold only MYSELF accountable for my OWN JOY, PEACE, HAPPINESS, and SUCCESS in my PURPOSE HERE...Everyone else is off the hook. How freeing for both of us!"

I think this is truly what it means to pull the mote out of your own eye.  If I hold myself, and only myself, accountable in all these ways, recognizing my own shortcomings, then I think there is really no room for the hypocrisy that would cause me to desire to point out someone else’s dirty windows.  But what about the tyrant that wants to go tell them how to wash their own laundry?  I know the example that brought me to where I am.  What I do not know is the beliefs that accompany the paradigm of control.  Oooo!  I have an idea- let’s put it to the test with the Z model…

Leads to left                                                                                                  Leads to right

CONTROL                                                                                            AGENCY

Pointing out others faults                                                                       giving others praise and compliments

Telling others what to do                                                                       affirming belief in them that they CAN do

Well… looks like this still needs some work…                                Allowing them to learn for themselves

My desire to be in control                                                                      My desire to see them grow