Jarom 1:12
Ashamed for being stirred
up to anger- Yes; Repentance, no. It has been a little painful and sometimes I
have wondered at the value of drudging up the past, but in hind-sight I can see
that as these things get resolved then the past truly gets resolved and then
there is nothing left to drudge up. By
what means? We are admonished to watch
and pray continually. Every day I pray
and acknowledge our weakness before God, repenting and asking for
strength. Just by desiring to improve,
then I repent and get better. Repentance
is not about condemnation, it is about improvement, so we can continually grow
closer to the Savoir and feel more and more of His light and His love. We also get to take of the Sacrament every
week to renew our baptismal covenants.
This helps us deeply ponder on ways that we can change (repent) so that
we can become more like the Savoir.
Personal application: I was actually talking to my Mom yesterday
about the ways my kids have been trying to stir up my anger- to ‘get my
goat’. She says they intentionally do
things just to get a flare because they get a kick out of it. I said that that’s evil, and she said that’s
true. It’s like there’s a ‘monster’
under the covers and they taunt and tease to get her to come out, but she
doesn’t want to come out. They will
continue to taunt and tease until I eliminate the monster within me. I am getting better and gaining control
within. Weather or not it will ever
happen again is not the point; but the fact that I am improving is all the Lord
expects of me.
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