4th of July 2011- 7-5-11 & "He did deliver me from bondage" p.31-39

7-5-11                 “He did deliver me from bondage”, p. 31-39

Wow, I just read principle 2, “I Glory in MY Jesus”.  This is SO amazing!  I marvel how she has captured the journey the heart takes as we come unto Christ.  She did it.  This is what I have been going through too.  Maybe not in the same sequence but certainly with the same feelings in my heart, and she captured it on paper!  I have been struggling to find a way to share what I have been through.  This is truly incredible to me. 

I love what she said about redeeming love, “Even so, I still have a continuous struggle to not break into a rousing and unique version of Handel’s “Messiah” or song of redeeming love.  It’s always there, humming in my heart. “

I too cannot say the smallest part which I feel, but I’m so glad she can.  She has captured beautifully the journey to Christ.

In fact, it has been just this last few weeks that I feel I have come to know for myself that “in His power I can do all things”, trusting that “He will prepare the way.”  I had been relying too much on my own strength.  The journey of this life is about learning and growing, only I thought I was becoming “complete” so that I could do it on my own.  The further I go, the more I realize life is more about learning to trust God’s power more than it is about gaining our own.  Only by releasing all my need to control, I gain the grace to be patient and love my children.

Last night was a good example.  Usually when the kids aren’t in bed by “bedtime” I start to turn into a monster and get very snappy and commanding.  But last night, all the kids took an afternoon nap so they could stay up to watch the fireworks.  That alone was an act of the tender mercy of the Lord- that they all went to sleep without much struggle (four kids 16 mo t- 6 years old).  They were happy (not wining) during the fireworks show, and not crying as in years past on the way home.  We got home about 10 pm; their usual bedtime is at 7 or 8pm.  I was pleasingly surprised when it was 10:15, they were doddeling (being poky-bears) and not brushing their teeth as instructed and still I was gentle and patient.  (Which is usually not the case!)  That was 100% grace.  I felt it.  It was Him holding me up.  I would guess that maybe it’s because I am learning to rely on His power, and let go of my own.

Hilary Weeks, “It would never be enough”