I
was thinking about ‘being perfected in Him’ yesterday. As I was doing my chores, in the back of my
mind I was examining my self-expectations.
It seems that my idea of being perfect is being highly competent; being
able to independently run a well flowing household all by myself; to be able to
accomplish all the good intentions I have.
I supposed that if I were as ‘perfect’ as I wanted to be than I might
not need anyone else to help me. I know
this idea is contrary to my mission of creating synergy. People don’t necessarily become
interdependent because they are completely self-independent, do they? I mean, don’t they have a NEED to become
interdependent because they want to accomplish something they can’t do on their
own? If I have a NEED then it’s an unmet
need; an aching pain; a pressing concern, right? So that means that God cannot grant me all of
this desire to become all that I want to be, because He has bigger plans in
mind. So the thought that was so awesome
to me was that this is / was my idea of ‘becoming perfect’; or ‘becoming
perfected’ in MY eyes. But what does it
mean from his perspective? In HIS
eyes? He IS the one saying it, so we
need to think of what He is saying from His perspective. If Jesus Christ is inviting us to become
‘perfected IN Him’ then what that is saying to me is that He is simply asking
me to trust Him and live my life through the power of His Atonement. He is asking me to believe and trust that mathematically
speaking,
my
–(negative)1 (or -1000) + infinity still
= infinity.
He
is asking me to trust that the Atonement CAN cover my weaknesses and that I
WILL reap the harvest in the end. I
imagine the invitation to ‘come and be perfected in Him’ to be like going into
a pool of clean pure water that can wash away all my ugliness and
impurities. (idea from The Dream
Giver) He is simply asking me to enter
the waters, trusting the Holy Ghost WILL lead me in all things I need to
do. I think my hardest thing with that
is that I want to see the whole vision all at once. There is a Hymn that called “Abide with me,
Tis even tide” that says ‘one step enough for me’. I’m sorry, but it is not enough for me. I HAVE to see the vision of where I am
going. My being able to over come all
the little petty things that don’t really matter; all my hope of getting out of
present circumstances to the vision I want to create for my life; All my hope rests on it! and if I can’t see that vision, then I can’t
have hope in it. It is the hope of the
harvest- I have to hold it in my heart
in order to keep going. It is what fuels
me and keeps me going. I have to see the
horizon or else my airplane is going to crash!
“He
did deliver me from bondage” p. 154
“And above all, trust and
believe in the Savior’s willingness to help your unbelief.”
Oh
this is so beautiful. I have felt
this. I know He can transform our
unbelief into faith to move mountains. I
grew up with the idea that others didn’t love me and they didn’t want to help
me. Getting to a place for me to believe
that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ really wanted to help me and loved
me was HUGE for me. Having that
reassurance, I think, has been the seed of me finding within me the power to
overcome all that I have. It has made
all the difference.
“No more will we be able to ignore
or deny that God has power enough to heal and repair and redeem even us. This is the most central and personal
revelation we can ever receive from God.
He will carry us home, like lost and weary lambs, in His own bosom if we
will stop running from the truth in our lives.”
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