"He Did Deliver Me from Bondage" p. 14, Day 4


2N 31:19 

 “For ye have not come thus far  save it were by the word of Christ and with faith unshaken in him, relying wholly upon the merits of him who is mighty to save.”

Yes, I have thought that my problem is in consequence of a low self-esteem, but this definition does not clearly discern the problem.  I think a lack of self-esteem, as the world calls it, is a result of not knowing who you are, and not knowing who you are is a lack of knowing God and having the Holy Ghost.  It is a line-upon-line journey of discovery.  I have seen in my journey that the degree to which I know God, then my confidence waxes (grows gradually) before Him.  It is a paradoxical idea to me that I have a “self-esteem” problem and that I do not esteem God highly enough.  It would seem that in both cases there is a lack of belief.  But how could there be a lack of belief if I have come “thus far with faith unshaken”?


I see the drift she is intending guide me in that I am nothing and God is everything.  I think my life has been teaching me that quite articulately during the last couple years.    I pray and wait for deliverance.

“He did deliver me from bondage” p. 13, Day 3


I have been pondering about this carnal problem solving.  One thing that I have realized is that some blessings come as grace, some come through grit.  In the past couple of years as I have learned to focus on Christ, solutions seem to be forthcoming; adjustments and changes seem to happen more fluidly.  I disagree with the author when she said “it will happen automatically”.  The way I see it, there are things we need to hope for, things we need to work for, and things we need to wait for.  Christ is the seed of all divine attributes.  I see her point of view that as we focus on Christ that some changes happen so slowly they are seemingly imperceptible and unnoticed.  Sometimes I think I have lived my mission my whole life and not even known it.  Like Elder Anderson once said, “We come to know what we already knew.” (talk called “You know enough”) 

I used to think the path of discipleship would happen like the manufacturing of a car where one part is put in at a time all done until you have a fine working vehicle.  As I walk this path it seems more like the formation of a baby in the womb where all things happen at once working together in perfect unison.  As I see myself becoming an instrument in the hand of the Lord, it is not my patience that is finished then I work on Godliness.  As Elder Uchtdorf said Faith, Hope, and Charity work inter-dependently in an upward spiral supporting and building on one another.  This path is difficult to describe, but unmistakable if you have walked it.  I know it is not me that is forming me to become who I am.  It is obvious and plain that I am wholly and completely supported by a power higher than my own.


2 N 12:11    And it shall come to pass that the lofty looks of men shall be humbled and the haughtiness of men shall be bowed down, and the Lord alone shall be exalted in that day.

What does it mean that the “Lord alone shall be exalted in that day”?  I suppose in the day that every knee shall bow and every tongue confess that Jesus is the Christ, they will do so because they realize the have no power and He has all power when the pestilence comes upon us is because of sin.  The prophecies are as much a foreseeing of wickedness as much as they are a warning.


We as a people are called to prepare the earth for the Second Coming of the Savior.  Pres Eyring said that “When He comes we will be prepared”.  That means to me that Zion will already be established and the earth will already be cleansed and pure.  Sometimes in my mind of foreseeing the future I think that things will happen in a “Poof”  type of magic.  But that is not how the Lord works.  He can certainly bring to pass what He will how He will.  But so far as I have observed in the scriptures and in my own life the Lord works through means that will increase our faith while He is bringing about His purposes.  And that happens because we choose it to be.  We are the ones that are His hands to work to prepare for that time.   It was the little boy David who went to the King and said, “I will fight Goliath!”  That wasn’t a “poof”.  That was the choice and faith of a little boy who believed in the power of God to conquer regardless of what things may have appeared to be like. 

But as for this reference, I think it will come to a point where man will realize they have no jurisdiction to legislate against the waves of the sea and men will stand as fools before God without power or self-importance.