11-21-11 “He did deliver me from bondage” p. 127 Day 4


11-21-11    “He did deliver me from bondage” p. 127  Day 4


23 Therefore, acheer up your hearts, and remember that ye are bfree to cact for yourselves—to dchoose the way of everlasting death or the way of eternal life.

I have seen this through my garden and the Law of the Harvest with the Z model.  I can see through Natural Law that it is true that we are free to choose our results because we choose our approach.  It has also shown me that God gave us a “space” where in to dwell and learn for ourselves by our own experience to know to price the good and shun the evil.  This is what I work to do in my home:  to create a learning environment and all that means in relation to the paradigms that I have.  I realize that if I want my children to learn for themselves (and to be the kind of leaders God has shown me is possible) then I must needs ‘allow’ them to learn within the bounds (or rules) that I set in my home.  I think too often our “natural-man parent” wants to just demand and force the situation or ‘do it cause I said so’.  If we truly want them to learn for themselves, it requires endless patience to explain and teach the reasons, so they can truly come to understand the Natural Law.  If we base the laws in our home on God’s law, then they will eventually come to see the wisdom in it and come to understand how God deals with His children. 


One lesson I learned for myself through my own experience was the connection between morality, modesty, and self-identity.  When I was a teenager I had a low self-esteem and didn’t know who I was.  I lacked acceptance at home and went outside the home looking for it in friends and worse boyfriends.  I lowered my standards and got attention from wearing immodest clothes.  Looking back, the saddest thing is that I did not let anyone come to see who I really was because I was afraid.  I played the part though I was never at peace in my heart.  With the clothes I wore, I did not show them who I really was.  I felt ugly on the inside and I tried to over-compensate for it by how I looked on the outside.  The world can never create a truly confident beautiful woman- only God can do that.  God builds us from the inside out to help us know who we really are.  He loves us, accepts us, and heals our hearts until we personally know His love so deeply that it really doesn’t matter to any degree the rejection the world gives us.  Now that I have learned for myself who I am and that I am beautiful, I can teach my children the truth.  When they come to matters of modesty I can tell them about being beautiful on the inside and of God’s love.  I know the truth is in my heart, so deep that sometimes I feel like I can’t even explain it.  I hope that my children choose to remain pure so that they will know where their true worth lies and know that their powerful beauty shines from deep within because of their purity.  There was a saying perpetuated by the world (I remember it from the movie “Liar, Liar”).  It was in a scene where the son was talking to the Dad about beauty.  The son said (probably not exact quote), “But I thought that true beauty was on the inside.”  Then the dad said, “That’s just something that ugly people say to make themselves feel better.”  He was lying.  Fake beauty is only skin deep and real beauty cannot be bought with money or surgery.  Real beauty comes from knowing where your true worth lies, and that’s the truth.

11-17-11 “He did deliver me from bondage” p. 127 Day 3


11-17-11                “He did deliver me from bondage”  p. 127 Day 3

I was thinking of “ease” this morning.  I talked to a friend about how the path to captivity is “easy” and the path to freedom is “Work”.  I think there are areas of each of our lives that we are stuck in an ‘auto-pilot’ mode where we are not really working to apply our best selves.  I have realized recently that I need to work much harder to ‘work’ with the children inspiring them to love to learn.  I have realized the weight of my responsibility and the depth of their education that is completely on my shoulders.  It would be so much easier to ‘toss the ball’ over to someone else.  But God gave them to me.  I am the parent, and I am response-able.  I know I can never lift the weight of my work alone and I must ask for His power and grace to help me lift it. 


Mosiah 4:30

But this much I can tell you, that if ye do not awatch yourselves, and your bthoughts, and your cwords, and your deeds, and observe the commandments of God, and dcontinue in the faith of what ye have heard concerning the coming of our Lord, even unto the end of your lives, ye must perish. And now, O man, remember, and perish not.

11-16-11 “He did deliver me from bondage” p. 127, Day 2


11-16-11    “He did deliver me from bondage” p. 127, Day 2

Daily Inventory…  Hum, new idea.    An enemy that weakens my strength?

I think an enemy that weakens my influence is trying to control others- it is repulsive not influential.  I still feel the ‘monster’ inside me who wants to strike out and tell others what to do.  It has been a constant game of ‘give and take’ learning “Which part is mine, and Lord which part is yours?  I get so confused sometimes.  Could you please tell me which part is mine, and which part is yours?”  That’s a song I remember from my youth.  It has been the adventure of my life to figure it out.  (by the way I have recently decided to use the word of adventure where I used to use the word challenge;  Before that I used the word problem instead of challenge.  I’m growing!  Because I know my mind will create the reality of what ever I call it and believe it to be.) 

I found this liberating quote today on facebook:

Heather Madder
" I hold only MYSELF accountable for my OWN JOY, PEACE, HAPPINESS, and SUCCESS in my PURPOSE HERE...Everyone else is off the hook. How freeing for both of us!"


I think this is truly what it means to pull the mote out of your own eye.  If I hold myself, and only myself, accountable in all these ways, recognizing my own shortcomings, then I think there is really no room for the hypocrisy that would cause me to desire to point out someone else’s dirty windows.  But what about the tyrant that wants to go tell them how to wash their own laundry?  I know the example that brought me to where I am.  What I do not know is the beliefs that accompany the paradigm of control.  Oooo!  I have an idea- let’s put it to the test with the Z model…

Leads to left                                                                                                  Leads to right

CONTROL                                                                                            AGENCY
Pointing out others faults                                                                       giving others praise and compliments
Telling others what to do                                                                       affirming belief in them that they CAN do
Well… looks like this still needs some work…                                Allowing them to learn for themselves
My desire to be in control                                                                      My desire to see them grow